I have no idea how to start writing this. But there is too much in my head and I need to write some of it down, get it off my head. I was watching a BBC talk show on the fourth anniversary of the war on Iraq. The program had so much diversity and every point of view. War opposers included British, Iraqis, the Syrian ambassador to the UK, a British soldier's mother, and many more. War pros included again British and US officials, western young people from the audience and Iraqis. They kept talking and talking and talking. Nobody could convince the other, nor the audience, because both parties have stories that seem convincing.
But this is the talking part for the British and Americans, after this show they're gonna go sleep, wake up early in the morning for a lot to do. Maybe think which country to invade, how to change polls to their favor, change the people's attitude towards different issues. Now what do we do? On our agenda for the next morning may be to discuss the situation in the region, discuss the problem with Lebanese politics, argue who did 9/11 and how jews were outside the towers when the planes hit, curse corruption, curse Bush, curse Sharon, Olmert, and every Israeli prime minister, etc. This is the majority of Arabs' agenda. Of course, a part of them, a second part, is working hard to make a difference, each in his own way, some writing, some working (not working as in having a job), etc. This is about 10% of the Arab world. The third part, the rest, are demonstarting about why Hasan Nasrallah cares about Iran, why Saad Hariri met with I dont know who, killing each other in demonstrations, shiites and sunnis killing each other, plannign revolutions, planning bombings in every country in the world for some "religious national" cause, etc.
I dont know which part I belong to, first or second, and this is what made me frustrated. But thinking that the third part is the one that is making our image worldwide, and shaping the future of our countries makes me want to kill myself. This makes me think that the US and Israel aren't the main source of threat for our existence. "We" are the only threat, and therefore we have to stop daydreaming about a better tomorrow.